Little rant. Life at the moment.posted Jan 10th 2011, 8:17AM
Mood: Melancholy
Music: The Willknots - Vertigo <3
So....like wth
I haven't drawn anything in ages and i dunno why, i'm just finding better things to fill my day with. I'm now scared of drawing or something, i'm not quite sure what it is. All i really know is that my life is so fucked up right now and i just keep disappointing myself over and over again.
So yeah gotta get up in 3 hours cause my flatmates gf has to go drop their car off to get fixed or some shit and i have to go in my car so i can give her a ride back.
Wait... why am i doing this? Because i'm nice and don't mind helping them out.
Wait... why the fuck am i not asleep? Because i'm simply retarded. I was out the welfare place yesterday and the lady looked at me and said 'so you're 21 and you haven't really had a job that can be put down on paper, what do you want to do?' i shrugged, if i knew what the fuck i wanted to do i'd have a fucking job and have a fucking life. Which i don't. So yeah that's how that happens.
Wait... why don't i have a girlfriend? well..it's pretty simply really, why would i ask myself something so stupid. Gah.
Current Age: 20
Current Residence: The couch, Auckland, New Zealand
Interests: Cars, Anime/Manga, Golf! Sports in general
Favourite movie: Don't believe in favs although i quite like The pursuit of happyness, L4yer Cake, Snatch, In Bruges
Favourite band or musician: Kanye West, My Chem, Chris Brown, Green Day, no favs
Favourite genre of music: Probably rock but i like all genres
Favourite poet or writer: *cough* what? na just kidding. Tom Clancy is alright in my books but i'm not much of a reader
Favourite style of art: Pencil all the way for me
Operating System: Windows Vista - argh its soooo annoying
MP3 player of choice: Ipod Touch 16gb
Favourite game: Forza Motorsport 2
Favourite gaming platform: Xbox 360 FTW
Favourite cartoon character: Takumi Fujiwari, Son Gokou
Tools of the Trade: 2h to 6B - Pretty much all i need
How come? friends are generally easy to make. I have the opportunity to go out, in fact i happen to have a car that technically will pick up any girl due to it's coolness factor. Yet here i am, on my laptop almost all the time. Too damn lazy.
eh, it depends on the crowd, really.
i'm a little more outgoing/willing to meet people than i used to be, but if they start acting awkward then it's just a dead-end thing.
i mean, i HAVE friends, just more online versus irl...and the irl ones are always busy or something, so we only get to catch up via the interwebz a lot of the time.
that and i don't drive/have a car, too scared and poor to.
I don't generally go out just cause i'm not too comfortable meeting new people. Just can't be bothered really. Yeah alot of my mates to still talk to over the net, mainly because i've moved away from them and that's the easiest form of communication. Its a 96 Nissan Skyline Turbo. Where i'm from, anybody who's influenced by japanese cars knows this car and loves this car.
Lol if a less mature person read that they could read that and take it the wrong way, well maybe my childish side would do so, but never me. Yep i hear ya though, i care so much about what people think that i just choose not to meet people, can't judge me if they never meet me.
I actually don't really like going too fast. xD 5-7 miles above the speed limit is as fast as I ever like any car to go. Unless it's in a totally safe, controlled environment. And when is speeding ever safe lol.
My dad's pretty much just going to make me learn about ever part of a car--every system, how it works, how it can break, how to fix it. Next weekend he's making me change my mother's break pads & fix her suspension. c:
I find speeding to be safe, as long as you're aware of everything else happening around you and you're comfortable with the speed you're traveling it's probably as safe as it'll ever get. I'm getting a new car soon, it'll be a semi-performance car so i'm going to have to learn everything about it if i want to keep it on the road, it'll be hard but seeing how it's going to be a car i'm really keen on i'm sure i won't have too much of an issue learning everything about it.